Fascinated

I am fascinated.

Love,
Peter

Dear Reader

"Let's face it, dear reader, neither one of us is getting any younger. If you don't go after your dreams now, when will you?" (What Color is Your Parachute, by R. N. Bolles)

Hell yeah!

Peter

So I Was Thinking About My Future

So I was thinking about my future but this time I had an interesting thought which went something like this: so I was thinking about my future but then it actually happened and I was like: so I was thinking about my future but it actually was something interesting in my head and it was something boring on the page but the future was, itself, something like this: so I was thinking about the future but this time I was so confused by all the imagined possibilities that I didn't end up doing anything so I actually died the next day sitting in front of my computer screen as I wrote a blog post that went something like this: so I was thinking about getting a job and getting a wife and getting a future when I realised that maybe it's more important to do work, to be a hubby, to make someone's future brighter than to go about getting and getting and getting until I end up with everything and I find that I'm just sitting in front of the computer screen writing a blog post that goes something like this: so I was sitting and thinking and not doing anything but wishing that my dentist appointment was now instead of in 13 hours because I don't like getting up so early in my holiday but it was something like this: so I was thinking about how I don't really have a holiday because I have to do work, but I've ended up taking quite a bit of a holiday anyway and oh my freaking goodness I've got so much work to do in the immediate future that I wonder how I'm ever going to think about my real future, you know the one where I'm perfectly happy and everything is carefully photoshopped up and all the ugly hairs are plucked out and all the scars are painted over, and my thinking about the future goes something like this: so I was thinking about my future and it wasn't a very original idea but I thought that I should very much like to have dinner each night next year, but you know, that's not the most important thing, so maybe instead I should resolve to miss dinner a few nights next year, you know so that my thinking could go something like this: so I was thinking about my future but I couldn't really figure God into the equation at all so I just decided to become a nihilist but then I realised that there wouldn't be any point and I starting thinking something like this: so I was thinking about my future but nothing made sense and
all my nightmares came true.

Peter

Legacy

Student Life National conference was awesome.

And as an added bonus, I did not fall asleep at the wheel on the way home.

I wish this song by Kutless were featured in the conference:

Oh the memories
Of all the things that shouldn’t be
They take you away from all you should be
Don’t let it go by as if you agree

Nightmares of the past will fade away
The future of your name is what will stay
Never try to blame the past for everything you say
You have the power you need to change your legacy

Do you really want to be just like
The very ones you blame who take you away
From all you should be
Don’t just stand by as if you agree

Nightmares of the past will fade away
The future of your name is what will stay
Never try to blame the past for everything you say
You have the power you need to change your legacy

Think of the future and when you are gone
How will you be remembered then
For all time you can be the one who changed the name

Nightmares of the past will fade away
The future of your name is what will stay
Never try to blame the past for everything you say
You have the power you need to change your legacy

To change your legacy
Change your legacy

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And while I'm posting awesome lyrics, I might as well post "Wordsmith Legacy" by Project 86:

Knock knock knock
Sound the blows to the forehead from the
Mock mock mock
Of the words, a voice I hear every morning

Like stalking me from yesterday
The taunts of one who sought to frame
The picture of this desolate
This figure cowering

Every word a double edged sword
A double edged sword
My every word

Drop drop drop
Sound the sledge to the metal
Shot shot shot
Sound the pin to the chamber
My own words pound after me
Intentions bent on conquering
The very will I proudly claimed
Was the very axe that cut the nape

Every word a double edged sword
A double edged sword
My every word

(I’ll never, ever look back
Sitting still, sitting still
Arrogant mindset of lusts
They search and strain and drink and stagger
When we are hollow
Sitting still, sitting still
You hate us cause we’ll never go away)

“You can drown
In your own mistakes
Burrowing into the black
Or you can take my hand”

Double
Edged
Sword
My every word

“This gift was never yours
So why would you ever think
That the words you said were your own?
I have chosen and breathed and forgiven and changed and purged and cleaned and forgave and bathed and carried and soothed and burned and spoken and spoken and spoken and spoken and spoken and spoken and spoken…
Yours is not to proclaim… But only to obey.”

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I'll be leaving a legacy. Will you?

Peter

Hast Seen the White Whale?

Today I finished reading Moby-Dick, by Herman Melville.

A great book, but it includes some descriptions that I found rather dry. But the book is on the whole, a great read, with a great style and good adventure.

Peter